Sept - 2012

Life is getting harder and harder..
Day is getting fast day-by-day..
and I am feeling lost and lifeless..

21st birthday..

haha..finally today was my 21st birthday..but i past this birthday by alone..nobody wishing me..lolx..i though i wont mind of it..but actually not..bcoz this make me feeling lonely..feeling alone..hate this feeling..haiz..
what make me most dissapointed is,even my gf also didnt wish me anythings..haiz..i think she is hoping not together with me anymore..juz waiting i speak out to break up..no..not waiting..is forcing me to suggest break up..what shud i do..?shud i wasting the time like now..?or do wat she hope me to do..?haiz..i dono wat to do now..what i m thinking also out of my mind..
一段感情就像一个人生。。都会经历生老病死，在感情里。生就是当两个人刚刚在一起时，那种快乐，那种无知，无私的感觉。。吵架了一下子就好，而会有可能越吵越好，哈哈。。可是当老时就代表，一旦吵架了，不知会冷战几天才会结束,就像老人家病了不知几时会好...病,在感情里,就是出现了大问题,可能是会提出分手,会冷战一段时期的可能性吧..死,自然不用我说大家也都明白吧...就是分手咯..感情的一生其实和人的一生诗一样的,不一样的就在于时间的长短而以..唉..感情真是件比人生更复杂的事..一个人过得好好的..为什么要找个人来烦呢?自己拿事情来烦,有多蠢阿!!!
i m getting older today..21st..ppl said 21st is the way to be mature,y i feel the same..?haha ~!juz feeling lonely and alone,hope that got some fren here can celebrate with me..wah..i think it wil very very happy and enjoy..lolx..but all these just my imagination..mayb my life is set by this way,then sure i cant change it..if i cannot change it,so i will face it..i wont let myself drop in unsuccesful way..haha..i want to be a successful man..~!and hope i can do it..i m now woking hard to let myself better in future..~!hahaha..those love things,dun come and hurt me pls..~i wont hurt by all these things again..sometime somethings that belongs to us,it wil come to us automatically,if the things is not belongs to us,how u want to get it also u cant get it..i alwiz remember these..ppl said taurus guy loyal in love..is that good..?no i dun think so..it is stupid..as today is my bday.i tell myself..i wont b a good guy,and i dowan so concentrate in love,coz it wil juz hurt myself,no others..i promise..!!hope it work..
getting tired and moody writting this blog,goin to slp soon..2day wil be working late also due to no ppl date me..wakaka..ITS MY LIFE..~!!!!

Learn a things from my "bad fren"..haha..girls is always not the main issue for guyz to be bother of..the progress is like that>>money >>> family>>fren>>gal..?omg..my fren..lolx..thats wat i wan..haha

Cry On My Shoulder..

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

一个人的生活

一个人的生活

叶子在窗外轻轻爷
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 no
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

Recently..

I'm now located at Singapore..starting my new life..finding a job at here..but,seems I come here at the wrong time,the economic is damn bad here..and i m now very hard to get job now..most of those company is under retrenchment now..thats y i m hard to get job now..but ppl said,is impossible that cant find a job,all this just need some time..yea,i know it..but then the life without doing anythings and in a new place,i m really hard to "Survive"..lolx..no fren..everyday juz in front of my laptop only..haiz..i really miss my fren and my life in KL..
I m now hard to make decision,is it I stay at here until i find a job,or I wil back KL to continue my job hunting if i reli cant get a job at SG?I m damn confuse now..who can help me to solve this ?
KL..got my fren there,my gf thr,somemore i cant really forget my life at there..I'm missing the life there..I dun like the life that alone everyday..HELP me pls..~

my life..

already 5am..although got abit sleepy le..but stil din feel wanna sleep..i also dono y..suddenly,i missing study life..although the life without study can less pressure..but for me,dono wat i m thinking..feeling lke this age if din study really wasting my time..but,this is my decision,once make a decision,although regret..but also hv to accept it..nowadays study wil harder..hope all my fren can handle and solve all problem..if got chance,sure i wil study back..wakakax
time was passing very fast..now i din miss her too much anymroe..mayb i really can let her go le ba..so i hope she also can live with happiness..without me or with another ppl..fully hope..pls be happy..
for now..plus a person that i like in my life..i also dono this is good or bad..but now,i just can walk and see..i also dun dare to look at my future..not ever to think it…hahaax..because this word come with reality..wat u think wil nvr b true..the things that u nvr think abt it wil alwiz appear..haiz..i m getting fine and fine for now..for my future,although got plan about it..but juz dun dare to think too much..hahax..this is weird…=p
the day getting morning soon,i also getting tired le..just long time din write out feeling..mayb write out can make me better..hahax

time past like water flow..~

time really past like water flow..in 2 years time,i finished my diploma..by the way,in 2 years time also an ending of my 1st relationship..the relationship really make a good memory for me..i cant forget it easily..but now,i have to put in down and live withouht her,with my new life,new style..or maybe,with a new partner..my ex was really make me fully dissapointed..1st result of my advanced diploma level was very very bad..it can be the worst in my life..when i tell her,i really hope she can an wei me..but she failed to do that..she make me cry also..2 person that in deep love before..she can hurt me with words..hurt me very bad..i already get bad result,feel wanna cry already..but then i stil can make my tears inside my eyes,tahan it..with her words..she make me cry..i was vry dissapointed..i really hope that i can proceed to higher level,but i failed to do it..although now i was writting in english,i think i had wrote alot grammar mistake above..haiz..i also dissapointed on me myself..today onwards..i wont miss her anymore..hope i stil can keep on contact with her..if she wish to..but i think i wil be a part of hers losing memory..juz keep me inside deep of her brain..wont think about me..maybe this was good..i wil always hope she is happy..
for my fren that stil continue studying,here i wish u all,god luck in u all exam..study hard..now what u all study was very hard..last minutes works cant pass with flying colour..hope u all can do it with best ~good luck~when got free time..we can limteh together..i will miss u all..really..i really bu she de study life^^
for my new love,i hope u can make my life more happier..for sure,i will do my best to maintain out relationship ~i miss u ~
Early in the morning ~wrote this blog,fully with mistake..apologise for that..
GoOd Luck For All my Fren~tAke caRe..